Ahhh, only two days back from vacation and the frustration of life rears its ugly head. You know, it is so much easier being away than it is being home. Things to do, two kids to follow around and pick up after, a husband doing "projects," a shedding dog, heat, humidity, the list goes on. I felt pretty good today as I headed out for groceries, and only spent $150 which is AMAZING. Got some iced coffee on the way home, and also was being "taken away" by the sweet sounds of Sting's Symphonicities. Still, when I arrived home, it all met me at the door. Right now, in fact, I am ATTEMPTING to think, and type, and write, while Devin and Gwynn are watching a Harry Potter movie at full blast, cracking up, happy for sure, but DRIVING ME INSANE! Tim tends to "join the fun," and is in the living room right now as well, but I just want to GET AWAY!

Don't get me wrong, I am not really in a negative place overall, just am STILL trying to find the pattern to my days, and the rhythm to my summer. I know we just got home, and I should give myself a little slack, but all I am thinking is how to go away again! We're trying to book a little trip to Lake George for our anniversary, and also a trip to Philadelphia with the kids. Why do I want to focus more there, than I do on being home, right now, and enjoying it?

Gonna blame the heat, I think.
Gonna go dump the ice from my iced coffee down my shirt right now and TRY to cool off, physically, and perhaps the mental will follow.